I had a really hard month, since this was the first month of school for Sheila. This is a totally new thing for me, to have a kid, who goes to school, and I have to admit it is not easy. Especially if you are a full time mother and do not have any excuses to submit for helping in the school-play or baking cookies and so on.
There are the other mothers, who can say, that ‘Oh, I have a full-time job, I have to wake up at 7, go into the office, work 8 hours, then pick up the kid and make all the “mum stuff”, so I really don’t have time for this’. I would admire them, if it would be like that, but it is not. The truth is, that yes, they go to work, but no, they do not pick up the children, that’s what the nanny does, also the breakfast, lunch and dinner are made by the nanny and she is the one who puts the children to bed. Of course, there are exceptions, and those mothers surely have superpower, I look up on them, but they do not have a 1 year old son, as I do. I would love to go to work and care about my children at the same time, but it is impossible!
I still cannot say that I do not have time for baking cookies and make costumes for the play, because that’s what the ‘stay at home’ mothers do. No, it is not! Although, I do not have to wake up at 7 to go to work, but I have to wake up at 1am, 3am and 5am, when Noah starts crying, then I have to get out of the bed at 7, when Sheila starts to prepare for school; clothes, hair and breakfast. However, my hubby helps a lot, in spite of the fact that he has to go to work, he often makes breakfast for the family. I have tons of other things to do during the day, such as the laundry, lunch, dinner, tidy the house, play with my baby boy, then help Sheila in her homework… Besides, I need to stay a sexy wife as well, so my hubby does not see me as a messy mum all the time.
All in all, I am exhausted, I cannot even write my blog with such a positive attitude as I would like to. But do not worry, I’m going to get used to this as well and then I can enjoy the perks of being a mother to the fullest again and gain back my positivity.